I’m working through this depression and finding more and more days where I’m feeling human. (WHOOOT!) Today is one of those days and it’s an incredible change from the one I had yesterday when Hailey came down for breakfast and was like, “Why are you laying on the kitchen floor?” and it seems pathetic to say I was too tired to sit on a chair, so instead I was like, “I’m doing the mannequin challenge” and Hailey was all, “I don’t think that’s how that works” but I was like, “Agree to disagree. I’M NAILING IT.”
Whenever I have days where my mind and body shut down I draw. Last week when I shared a drawing I was working on (and the furry person keeping me from completing it) people asked how I’d made such perfect circles and the truth is that I use whatever I have on hand to trace the shapes I need.
Last year when I was on book tour someone gave me a ring with “NEVER GIVE UP” engraved on it to remind me that I’d helped save them, and to remind me that I was needed even when broken. A few days later someone in line told me they were struggling and I handed her the ring that had comforted me. And the world goes round and round. And then I had Victor buy a dozen more and send them to me on tour and every day I’d wear one and if I thought someone needed a reminder I’d give my ring to someone who was struggling or who was celebrating surviving but scared of the future. I’m still wearing my last one. And it’s what I used to make a lot of those circles.
Fitting.
PS. I really am fantastic at the Mannequin Challenge. I can literally do it in my sleep. In fact, that’s where I do it best.