Well, fuck.

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A few weeks ago I was in California and I still have to write about it but I haven’t yet because I came back and fell into a depression followed by the flu (GO GET YOUR FLU SHOT). But when I was in California my friend Jenny sent me a dm to see if I wanted her to give me an insider hookup since she’d worked in Monterey for a decade. And I didn’t see that message at all because I suck at checking messages and then a week later I saw it and responded, “I am literally just seeing this now. Jesus. wtf, me?” and I expected to her to say, “Well, my friend, you suck, obviously.” But she didn’t because turns out she’d just gone into hospice for the cancer she’s been fighting. But Jenny is a bad-ass who has been fighting cancer for 8 years. She almost died three times last year and always came back like a fucking champ so I sent her another message telling her how much I love her.

Sent. Not read.

And today she is gone.

I took this picture of her 16 years ago at a Blogher Convention. That was the night we discovered Chambord and we poured it into every drink we had. We called it “Unicorn Period” because it seemed magical and also because the name made others queasy and so no one asked us to share it. Jenny was the kind of person who would give you the shirt off her back, but mostly to show you the enormous Wear the Wild Things Are tattoo across her entire back. She sent me a Christmas card with her beautiful family on it every year (including this one) even though she knew that I never sent cards or even had the energy to put up a tree some years. Some people would really hate a memorium like this, filled with tattoos and hoarded unicorn menstruation, but not Jenny. And that’s why I loved her and why I will miss her and why I will forever wish that I’d told her all this earlier…even though I know that she knew it.

But maybe you are reading here and you don’t know it, so I will tell you now. I love you. If I have met you in real life, I love you. If we were close but then drifted a little because I’m afraid to leave the house or use the phone, I love you. If we’ve never met but you are here, I love you. If I blocked you on facebook because you wrote some crazy-ass shit, I love you. If you’re reading this, I love you.

I’m sorry. I should have said it sooner.

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  3. I love you more than is appropriate. Also, how did I not know you were in California?

  4. I love you. And I’m so sorry for your loss. Big loss. You’ve been a sporadic bright spot in my life, so thanks for that.

  6. Oh. I am bereft for you. For all of us, really. I know “sending love and prayers” has been tagged as trite, but really, what else is there. Sending love and prayers.

  7. We have never met but I love you for your insanity, your bravery, your willingness to share your journey even when it’s scary and horrible, your twisted sense of humor, the giant metal “Knock, knock motherf*cker” chickens and posse of pets (alive and taxidermied), and your fantastic books that can always make me laugh no matter how I’m feeling. I’m so sorry you lost your friend and I send you giant hugs and Unicorn Period liquid in hopes of helping a little. XOXOXOXOX

  8. I love you too, Jenny. And am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful friend. Xoxoxo

  9. I’m so very sorry, Jenny. What a lovely tribute to your dear friend. I love you.

  10. I’m so sorry! I made a New Year’s Resolution to reach out to the people I love and appreciate and let them know how I feel. It has been amazing – one email or message per day, and the responses have warmed my heart. We must always tell people we love them as often as possible. I’m sure she knew your heart.

  11. I’m so sorry for your loss. Good friends are worth their weight (and more!) in gold. She definitely knew how much you loved her and how much of a badass you think she is. Love you too.

  12. I am so very sorry for the loss of your amazing friend who sounds like the most beautiful and magical spirit. Sending so much love your way.

  13. I’m so sorry for the loss of your kindred spirit!
    I love you back in a non creepy way.
    And your followers too.
    I’m terrible at sending cards to people, or responding back to them. I’ve lost people to death after I took too long to reply back to them, it’s a very sad feeling.
    But life is hard, and sometimes I just don’t have the energy or willpower to follow up on communications with old friends or coworkers who might want to get together.
    It’s okay, she knows you love her.
    True friends accept you for who you are, faults and all.

  14. I love you too, even though I am also really bad at keeping in touch. Cancer has taken another amazing person from our lives and I am so sad for her family.

  16. I’m so sorry for your loss, Jenny. Your friend sounds awesome. Love you too.

  18. So sorry for your loss. Sounds like the earth lost a really good human ❤️‍🩹

  21. Jenny was amazing. I only met her in person once, but her smart, snarky, hilarious, and always incredibly supportive voice has been a huge part of my internet life for a long time. I’m going to miss her.

    I love you, too.

  23. fuck cancer I’m so angry and sick that our friend is gone. I met her through you and loved her so much

  25. I’m so deeply sorry on your loss. I reached out to a friend a few weeks ago to let her know a mutual friend had passed away. We hadn’t spoken in a few years. During our conversation I found out she battled cancer last year. It was horrifying to think that she could have died and I’d never would have known. I promised myself that I’d reach out more.

  26. You are awesome Jen and when I was dealing with cancer before I remember your kind words and Facebook message to me and I’m dealing with it again going through chemo but my prognosis looks very good so the bastard’s not going to win

    And I love you too your books and post have done a lot for me and I’m at my girlfriend from beeps so

    And lotion board magical stuff the bottle looks like The Holy Hand Grenade of Antioch yes Holy Grail reference and the liquid inside is awesome Unicorn Blood and Champagne k i r r o y a l e can’t beat
    it
    I’m so very sorry it sucks when cancer wins occasionally a chemo somebody will be missing and it’s a thing

  27. Oh, I am so very sorry for this tremendous loss. May her memory be a blessing. And I love you, too. And she knew! How could she NOT know?

  28. And I forgot to say, but FUCK CANCER.

    It has gotten two of my good friends within the past six months. Took my mom.

  30. You were fortunate to know and enjoy each other. I’m really sad for your loss, Jenny. Thank you for sharing her with us today. We all love you back!

  31. Love you too. Cancer just stole a friend of mine also. He was funny and kind and I should have reached out more. Fuck cancer.

  32. Oh, honey, I’m so sorry for your loss and her family’s loss and the world’s loss. She sounds like an amazing person. Cancer sucks.
    We probably won’t ever meet (I don’t do the people thing well and I’m not as cool as you), but I love you, too. You’ve been such a light for me on my darkest days, and I know you were one for your friend, too. Gentle hugs 💜

  33. Sorry for the loss of your friend, Jenny, glad that you have such fond memories of her. Thank you for sharing them so eloquently. Cancer reeeally sucks.

    Love you too…knowing that you struggle helps me get through it when stuff is rough. Appreciate you.

  34. Thank you. The same back to you and to your friend, her family, and all the other Jennys in all our lives.

  35. I’m so sorry for your loss, Jenny. May her memory be for a blessing and may your memories of her bring you comfort. 💜

  37. Fuck cancer. Brain and rectal here, and living on borrowed time. I have been using the fancy dishes, spritzing the expensive perfume, and telling everyone how I feel about them. I’m sorry that you lost your friend and I am sorry about your most recent depression. You are loved.

  39. I’m so sorry, is not enough to place here for you. I love you, Jenny, you’ve been the friend I’ve never met, thank you! You mean the world to me.

  40. I love you. I’ve never met you and yet reading you makes me feel like I know you sometimes and it brightens my day like getting a message from a friend. I’ve lost people too soon and that includes my grandmother who just passed away last month at 90 (still too soon if you’d known her. U would’ve loved her too if you knew her. She broke her hip at 87 dancing salsa and still keep going, so her being dead just doesn’t compute in my head. She’s asked me to visit her across the country countless times and I didn’t until she was in hospice and bedridden and now she’s gone and I regret visiting her all the time. My best friend died in a motorcycle accident in his early thirties and I hadn’t t seen him in a decade same with my closest cousin who died of suicide and depression. We used to be so close. The regret lingers but the memories and love last longer. I’m send you love and prayers but also understanding because I’ve been there and it fucking sucks.

  41. When I found out this morning that Jenny had left us, I sat at my work computer weeping. Cancer can suck it. Today is awful. Jenny deserved a happily ever after.

  42. I know how super heartbreaking this has to be. I’m really sorry for your loss. If I could hug you I would. I hardly ever have time to read your blog but I still can say I love you, too.

  43. You are so special to have had a loved one like her. Your life has been enriched and will continue to be by her friendship and life. What a lovely testament to her spirit.
    (Insert sobs now).

  45. I’m so sorry, Jenny. She sounds like a wonderful friend who absolutely knew how much you loved her.

  46. Oh, honey.
    I’m so sorry, that is one of life’s (death’s?) cruelest tricks.
    It sounds like her memory will absolutely be a blessing to you and all who knew her.

  49. Sending you the biggest hugs. I’m so sorry you lost your friend. I am certain she knew you loved her.

  50. I love you too.

    Jenny’s death hits hard because she was awesome – but also because, well, it’s all too familiar and also likely imminent (for all too similar reasons) for someone I am close to.

  52. I am so sad and sorry for the loss of your friend. What an amazing life force – grateful that you were able to know her, even if just for awhile.

  53. So, so sorry. I didn’t know Jenny, but I’m keeping her and her friends and family close in my heart. I love you, too.

  54. I never met you but your writings and posts and thoughts have always brought me joy. I love you.

  57. Oh Jenny, I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend. F*ck cancer! It sounds like Jenny was a bright shining light, and so brave.

    I just lost my mom to cancer in October, so I empathize with your grief.

    I met you at a book fair in Huntsville, AL when Furiously Happy came out. I have loved you since I read your blog about buying Beyoncé. Knock knock, motherf*ckers!

  58. Love you back. We’ve met only once, a very long time ago. You were on stage with Guy Kawasaki at Blog World and passed around a bottle of wine. I took a sip and I didn’t die, so I guess nobody in the audience had anything catching.
    I never met Jenny, but I contributed to her Go Fund Me account. I don’t think the death of friends gets enough attention. Their loss leaves huge holes in our hearts.

  59. Love you, too! I am so sorry for the loss of your friend. How lucky you were to have such a wonderful person cross your life’s path. ❤️

  60. Beautiful photo of your friend. Thanks for the reminder to love each other & declare it!

  61. I love you too, and have since the day I read about Beyonce the Giant metal chicken. I am so sorry you lost a friend. She’s everywhere now. 💗

  63. I love you, too, Jenny. Life is short. Live every day like there’s no tomorrow.

  64. I’m saddened to hear about the loss of your beautiful friend. I’m sure she knew how much you loved her. I know we don’t know each other IRL but I’m so glad to be a part of your awesomeness and I love you like crazy (in a non-stalkery way I promise). Many hugs for you to get you through this hard time and an extra or two to keep in your pocket in case of an emergency

  65. Dear Jenny,

    I grieve with you, both for the loss of your precious friend but also for the regrets you carry, even though I know that you know that Jenny knew everything you would have said.

  66. I am so very sorry for your loss. She knew how much you love her, I’m sure of it. Be kind to yourself.

  67. I love you too Jenny, and also should have said it sooner (again, because I’ve said so before – it’s just been a while. But I think it!)

    I was so sad to hear about Jenny. I’m greatful to have met her, and happy to say I was a part of that whole blogging culture, they were wonderful times. Better times when I was connected daily to people that inspired me, without the noise of social media.

    Love you friend,

    Karen

  68. What a bad ass she looks. We all all all need a Jenny. I’m
    So sorry for your loss ❤️

  70. I feel this in my bones right now and you say things I can’t quite find the words to explain. I also had my last text to a friend go unanswered in November and I just want to know she knew how much I love her and how I want to be a better friend, in her memory!

  72. I love you too, and I’m grateful every day that you’re still here for me to say that to. (Do I win today’s Awkwardly Worded Sentence award?)

  73. I love you too, Jenny. So, so much. Your transparency about mental health and the struggle with our brains has helped me immensely. I’ve followed since before the Blogher conferences and continue to come here for solace and hope. Thank you.

    Sending you peace and love as you remember your friend today. I read this with tears in my eyes as I also have a friend for whom life support is being withdrawn today. He is a work friend who used to be part of my day every day for over a decade, but with whom it has been too long since I’ve caught up. He brought joy, kindness and happiness into every morning- we called him Sunshine or likened him to working with Grover. And then he was diagnosed with brain cancer and six weeks later his lovely wife has to somehow say goodbye. I will love my people harder today- as you are. Know that you matter so very much to me.

  74. I’m so sorry for your loss and for her family during this time 💜💜💜

    Boooo to the flu! I’m all for ppl getting their shot if it helps; I unfortunately cannot get the flu shot UNLESS I want to be severely ill- I have gone without more often in my 37 years and am doing ok 😅

    I love you, I hope you enjoyed California (and I hope to catch you next time if possible! 🌻🌈).

  75. We don’t know each other, and I love you dearly as all your books. I am sorry for the loss of your dear friend. Love has no space, no time, no limits. She will continue loving you as you will continue loving her. Love is the most magical of all magic.

  76. I am sincerely sorry about the loss of your friend. She sounds like my kind of person, as do you. I laughed so hard reading your books. It was like a conversation with a friend. I have no words of wisdom. It just sucks. But I believe the universe, spirit, Jesus is on that other side and you’ll be having cocktails with unicorn blood together in a most perfect place. 🥰

  77. Every time I read that you love me, I cry a little. Thank you. I try to make my tears mean that all sorts of stuff is wrong about me. Like I’m such a loser how can you love me? All that in a nanosecond. Then I cry a little more and breathe and really get that you love me just the way I am and am not. You are a gift in my universe.

  78. I got that beautiful Christmas photo every year too, even though I too have never sent them. I am just gutted for her beautiful boys (including Quentin).

  79. Well, X2 now. Heaven got 2 good ones this week; a friend who always laughed and sent humorous texts and was the one to always reach-out first, suddenly passed on Tuesday. Maybe Nydia and Jenny are already buds – I can see that.

  81. You are saying it now, and that is what matters.

    I beleive that the greif we feel when someone passes is just all the unexpressed love we had for them. Expressing it in life doesn’t make the pain go away by any means but I have found that it does help it somewhat.

    I am sorry for your loss. Thank you for taking the time to share about Jenny, if only for a breif moments I feel like I got to love her too.

  83. I am so very sorry for your loss of such an awesome friend. She sounds amazing! I am thankful thy you have some fantastic memories to cherish
    I also suck terribly at communicating. Sigh. It’s not going to improve, I don’t think.

  84. Fuck Cancer! So sorry you lost your friend. I just this week found out that my friend of 40 years, Rhonda, passed away from lung cancer and a brain tumor. Please hug everyone in your lives and tell them you love them. You just don’t know.

  85. So so sorry, I hate cancer, and losing loved ones, and I hate how I’m unable to reach out to those I love too. You are never alone Jenny, we love you bunches. Thanks for saying what the rest of us cant but need to hear. We love you.

  91. So fill to me the parting glass, and drink our health whate’er befall,
    Then I shall rise and softly call, Goodnight, and joy be to you all.
    The High Kings
    Look it up on YouTube

  92. Oh no, I’m so sorry for your loss, Jenny.
    I should be so lucky to have a memoriam this awesome written about me when I peace out of this life.
    We have met once and I love you, too, lady.

  94. I have not read your words in so long because the past 16 months have been a personal hellscape but for some reason I clicked today and I am SO grateful to know your love for your beautiful clever friend. Thank you for sharing her with us and thank you for the love. We all need a little extra these days. Love you too. Deepest sympathies on the loss of your dear friend Jenny. She deserved many more Unicorn Period sessions with friends.

  96. We love you back Jenny. Sending hugs. So sorry to hear about the loss of your friend, she sounded amazing.

  97. I love you too Jenny. You make my life so much better. I’m so sorry about your friend. I’m hurting for you.
    And the flu. Yes get the shot everyone but my shot didn’t include the flu that hit me in December. So they don’t always guess right so if you get the shot and later feel flu-ey go to the doctor. My doctor was surprised and seemed a little giddy that I had the flu.

  98. Life is so crushingly painful and CONFUSING sometimes. Why do so many lovely people leave this Earth Hotel before their time? (At least in our estimation, that is…) We just lost someone in our immediate family to brain cancer — age 34, mother of a two-year-old boy. What’s fair or right about that? Nothing. Is there a ‘why’ behind all of this? I guess so, but I’m not evolved enough to know exactly what it is. I can only try to follow the lead of my dog, Dude. He lives in the moment, takes a nap when he needs one, and is happy to see everyone he meets. Ultra Zen. He also likes the occasional Egg McMuffin (no bacon, no butter), but that’s a story for another day.

  99. Awe Jenny. I’m so sorry you lost your friend. But I’m so happy you had such a person in your life. Hold on to your joy.

  100. I’m so sorry, Jenny. What a beautiful tribute to your friend, and I love you right back. Thank you for being in the world.

  101. I hate this so much, but I’m also filled with love because she was so good. I’m going to miss her. Sincerely. I’m terrible at reaching out and communicating, but I’m so glad I got to be around her as much as I did. She always welcomed me in as an old friend. I hate this.

  102. We love you. Your blog and books helped me get through the passing of both my parents. So what if you are a shut in sometimes. It makes you who you are, and that is just flat out truthfully fucking funny! I will now only refer to Chambord as unicorn period!

  103. I’m so sorry about your friend. She sounds like an awesome person. I was never the type to go around telling everyone how I felt about them, but the last few years I’ve realized how short life can be. It’s getting easier for me to say the words. So, now I’ll tell you. I love you right back. No, we’ve never met, but from the first book, you’ve made my life a little brighter.

  104. I am so sorry for your loss Jenny. She sounds like a beautiful woman and friend.😥❤️

  105. Your friend sounds excellent. I’m very sorry for your loss. I love you more than you know! Thank you for you 🖤

  106. I’m so sorry about your friend. Seems like a slap in the face every time I hear of someone passing these days. I want you to know that I love you right back. We met once at a book signing in Huntsville Alabama. I have all your books both in print and as audiobooks. You have been on many a trip in the car with me, sitting right there in the passenger seat and reading to me. Last August I got to visit the Nowhere Bookstore and had so much fun! So. I super crazy love you back, and you have made my life better just by being you. Thank you.

  107. I’m so very sorry for your loss, Jenny. May her memory be a blessing.

    I didn’t know your friend (and I haven’t met you in-person, but I *feel* like I know you from years of being your reader and being active in your online community), but I am sobbing for you (and for myself—I lost two besties last July, and *every single day* one or more things comes up that makes me think of each of them).

    It makes me feel better knowing that you love all of us. Our emotional connection is important, especially when so many of us, like you, rarely leave the house or talk on the phone.

    Love you loads!

  108. I am so sorry for the loss of your friend…she sounds like a wonderful person and it’s sad she couldn’t be here longer.

  109. Oh Jenny. I felt this so hard. I lost one of my dearest friends last year to a combination of Rheumatoid Arthritis and Covid (she was vaccinated, but the Covid took over her immune deficient lungs). Her absence is still like someone tore a giant rent in the universe. Her empathy and extra shine was hers and hers alone.
    I appreciate the gentle reminder to love our people fiercely. KKMF, indeed. Love to you!

  116. I love you too Jenny. I am so so sorry for your and her family’s loss. Totally not me crying at work right now.

  117. Feck Cancer (I don’t use the asterisk but maybe I should. It’s like adding a butthole to the F-bomb 🤷‍♀️). Love you and love being part of your tribe. I am so so sorry for your loss. I’ve been thriving on your writing since pre metal rooster days (btw I tried to buy one but the price was ridic here in 🇨🇦). Your friend Jenny was amazing and I know she knew you loved her and treasured her friendship. Take strength in those around you. Should I send a sweet cat pic? Hugs, Crazy Canuck

  118. I’m so so sorry about your friend. She sounds like an absolute delight, and clearly you and she loved each other to bits. Massive hugs from an internet stranger in the frozen north.

  119. I’m so sorry for your loss, Jenny. I had a friend who was battling a very rare sarcoma, and she just kept beating and it kept coming back. But our whole lives (we were friends since we were 11 and we are now mid-40s), every single thing she said she was going to do, she did. So I talked to her in early fall when the cancer came back AGAIN, and she said she was going to see her son graduate. SO I said, awesome, love you, talk to you soon. And then mid-November she went into hospice on a Friday and passed away Wednesday. In Florida. I live in NY. I pulled together a two day trip with a friend who now lives in Kansas, to say goodbye and to be there for her family, who are like my family. And it sucks. It really really sucks. And I just wanted you to know that you’re not alone.

  121. I am also terrible at keeping touch with friends. I am very sorry to hear about your friend. She sounds like a great one.

  126. When I read your blog today, it just hit my like a gut punch. I’m so sorry for your loss and please know I love you as well and love Jenny for putting up the best fight she had. Dam cancer!

  127. I, too, lost a “Jenny” (well, I called her Jenn) to cancer. It was two years ago from right now. A bleak January day that departed her from this earthly coil into what I dearly hope is the home her faith promised her.

    And many times since then I wished I had spent waaaay more time with her. Wished we had been able to take that Napa trip while she was healthy. Wished we’d had more…more…more….of pretty much everything.

    I only hope our two Jennys can meet and laugh at us both.

    Big Texas hugs.

  128. I just finished penning a diary entry about how I love people and the world at large but yet I hide at home. This was a good reminder to connect with the humans I love. I’ll do my best to get past the front door.

  130. Iam so sorry for your loss Jenny. The world is a little less bright without your crazy ass friend in it

  131. What the actual fuck…. 😭😭😭 I thought she had it beat. I thought she was too good to die, that her beautiful boys and family wouldn’t have to live without her. I am so sorry to hear this, but so happy that I knew her and got to spend some really amazing time with her at the BlogHer conventions of yesteryear. She was so funny and cool and just really great to be around. Thank you for writing this and letting us know. It’s a heartbreaking reminder to let the people you care about know how you feel. ❤️

    Fuck. 😞

  132. Oh, I am so sorry. She sounds like an incredible person and a wonderful friend. What a gorgeous tribute to her and reminder to us all to tell those who are important to us how much they mean to us because you just never know. Thank you for sharing, Jenny and may her memory heal your heart.

  133. I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend, Jenny. Your description makes me wish I’d known her. May your memories of her be a comfort. ❤️

  134. Love you too, Jenny! We were never close and it’s unlikely we will ever be, but today that doesn’t matter at all.

  135. I’ve met you once, In Pasadena at a book reading. Your California family was there. Gabby sang for us and I got their autograph too, they were amazing. I had an anxiety attack while we waited and half a dozen loving strangers gently comforted me. I gave you a hand drawn letter that I have no idea if you read, and you hugged me so hard. And now I’m bawling. I love you too and I’m so sorry about your friend 🩷

  136. I am so very sorry. Big hugs. I don’t know why we humans can’t get it together enough to make sure we remind our people out loud that we love them and that our lives would be horrible without them. We really need to do do better. You never know when one of them really needs to hear it in any given moment, and how much just those three little words can shore up a heart in an instant. Don’t forget, Jenny, that your gazillion of us, whom you have and haven’t met, love you right back! You are a gift.

  137. I’m so sorry for the pain you’re feeling right now for missing someone who is obviously amazing. I honestly believe with my whole heart that once this shit show called life on Earth is over, we WILL be reunited with the Souls who’ve meant so much to us during said shit show.
    Jenny & Jenny WILL find each other again…and will probably celebrate the moment with Magnums of Unicorn Period.

  138. I’m so sorry. I’ve lost too many friends to that bastard, and have many friends and family who are fighting it now. I rarely comment, but I love you too.

  139. No, no no…this woman kept me sane and talked me through unspeakable times with her words, and books and wisdom. I’m here in Fort Worth crying on my back porch.
    Knock Knock Motherfucker. 🙂‍↕️ 🐓

  140. I’m so very sorry for the loss of your friend and in case I’ve never told you before, I think you’re an amazing person and I love you.

  141. A perfect tribute to your friend and a reminder to everyone that we need to love each other, no matter what and especially now with the s**t that is going on in D.C.

  142. I fucking crazy love you Jenny. I say it every time a read a post from you. Just to myself, but always outloud. You be you. I wouldn’t have it any other way.

  143. I am so sorry you lost your friend. Just know that you are loved by so many other people. Especially me. ❤️

  144. I’m sorry about your friend! Cancer sucks. If it helps you gave my family joy when my mom had cancer (she’s still a survivor!)

  147. I’m so sorry to hear about your good friend. Longtime lurker here, coming out of the woodwork like a (Bipolar II) weevil to say thank you so much for all your love and goodness and willingness to share your struggles, even towards internet strangers like me. We all benefit from knowing we’re not the only ones out there who struggle with similar issues. I’m glad that you know that your friend knew that your heart was there with her.

  148. P.S. I have a feeling you’ll enjoy knowing the fact that there are African penguins that sound like donkeys. But instead of naming them Donkey Penguins (good band name?), scientists decided that their name shall be Jackass Penguins.
    https://www.google.com/search?q=listen+to+jackass+penguins+sound&oq=listen+to+Jackass+penguins+soun&gs_lcrp=EgZjaHJvbWUqBwgCECEYoAEyBggAEEUYOTIHCAEQIRigATIHCAIQIRigATIHCAMQIRigATIHCAQQIRigAdIBCDc3MjdqMGo0qAIAsAIB&sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8#fpstate=ive&vld=cid:08d93b46,vid:oTOcJj_NNUg,st:0

  149. Chambord milkshakes are The Unicorn Period Bomb, and I plan to raise my next one to Jenny. All my love to you XOXO

  150. Much love to you and your amazing friend’s family. We all love you! And CHECK YOUR BREASTS!!!!

  153. I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been really bedridden-level ill to know that reaching out with love and hope to my friends made me feel better, just by my act to connect us. During one stint I decided to Have an Attitude of Gratitude, handwriting Thank You notes to the surgeons and other I’d encountered.
    Because of this, I suggest you helped your friend, just by being someone she could reach out to with her love.
    She knew you two were connected, and loved you just as you are. The greatest gift we can give each other.
    I’ve also used my handwritten Journal to let someone who’s passed “write a letter“ to me.
    I can vouch for this letter becoming a comfort as well as a revelation, distilling the love in the world to an inky page.

  154. My heart to you and all who loved her.

    I love you right back. Thank you for always making me feel like I’m normal for being weird and for always being so kind when we meet in person. You make the world a better place too.

  155. She was fierce, confident in her assessment of any situation, and one of the funniest people. Such a huge loss to the world, and I can’t imagine how hard this is for her family 💔

  156. So sorry for the loss of your friend. She sounds like a badass. I lost a friend back in May & I wish I’d gotten to tell her I love her one more time. Love you!

  159. Oh no!!!!!!!!! So sorry, Jenny!!!!!*offers hugshugshugshugshugshugshugs …….*

    Just so you know, I love you. Since I first opened your first book, around the time I was first diagnosed as being on the autism spectrum, I’ve loved your writing … this is probably weird but I find you *encouraging* I think, ‘well, she’s got it so much worse than me, and *she* keeps going … so I guess I can too’.

    *more hugshugshugs …..*

  165. I love you too. You’re the bright spot in a lot of days all I could see was black. All I have to do is say Beyonce and I smile. That chicken will cut you. I’m so sorry for your loss. Be well.

  166. I have loved you since I read your first book.My friend Jenny W. Loved you since I shared your book with her. She too has her fear of many things but brilliantly forges on. I am phobic so I relate on a few levels. Never stop writing. . You bring the light into our dark places.. LOVE YOU MUCH!

  171. Love you back, you make the world a brighter place. I’m so sorry for the loss of your friend.

  172. I love you too Jenny. Deepest sympathies for the loss of your wonder twin. May her memory continue to be a blessing. Thank you for being you.

  175. You are the greatest friend that a person could have. The love you share is incredible. Sorry for the loss of your friend.

  176. So sorry. From everything you said, though, your friend Jenny surely knew how much you loved her.
    I also felt sharp regrets over things I didn’t get around to saying to my brother when he unexpectedly took his own life this past October. He had sent me a text about midnight asking me to call him the next day if I wasn’t busy, but ninety minutes after he sent it, he was gone. I didn’t see it until the next morning.
    If I’d been in that kind of pain and he’d learned about it, he’d have dropped everything to be there for me. I wish he’d called at midnight instead of texting and given me the chance to do the same for him.
    He didn’t leave a note and it was as big a shock and surprise to his wife, kids, and friends as it was to my wife and me, so I will never know what was eating at him.
    To all the people we’ve lost, I hope every one of you is at peace now. If you’re one of those I’ve lost, please know that I still love you and think about you.

  177. Coming on here to say in no uncertain terms that you are absolutely loved. I was only lucky enough to meet you in person once, but I hold you in my heart every day. Thanks for creating this community. ❤️

  179. I periodically tell you I love you, but it likely gets lost in the ocean of loving messages you receive. That’s okay. Use that ocean as a buoy when you need it. You are a treasure.

  184. I’m so sorry that you didn’t have the chance to tell your friend again how much you loved her. But I think you showed her that many, many times over the years which is even more important. As the saying goes, actions speak louder than words. I love your blog, Jenny, thank you for writing it and sharing your life. It helps everyone who reads it.❤️

  186. We also love you! Thank you for being here and sharing the big and small things of your human experience! *Hugs

  187. I didn’t talk to a friend who needed me because I was going through a depression myself. I didn’t get to tell her I loved her and she was so so special. Your post makes me feel like I can tell her now.

  188. I’ve never commented but i have to tell you that you got me trough some bad times. You are awesome and so very loved. I’ve lost way too many loved ones to cancer and i’m so sorry for your loss. 🫂🫂

  189. I’m so sorry for your loss. I love you, too. Your words have inspired and comforted me (and made me laugh more times than I can count), and through you I’ve met a bunch of people I can be myself with, and a few of them have become very close friends.

  191. losing a friend is hard- you no longer have a co-rememberer of all the crazy stuff you did together, all the important things you went through, the silly times and the sad serious times.. you have your memories, and sometimes in the far future, maybe you will meet up again. sending you a big (((((hug))))))

  192. I’m so. So. Sorry. I unexpectedly lost my best friend to a heart attack last April. It’s awful and I’m so sorry you are going through this right now. Sending you SO MUCH LOVE ❤️❤️❤️

  193. I lost my best friend to breast cancer in 2012. She was a mom of four and she died at 38. Then my mom died from an aggressive sarcoma six months later. I couldn’t hate anything more than I hate cancer.

  194. Cancer sucks. I’m so sorry you lost a friend and the world lost another wonderful soul to that horrid disease. We love you too Jenny. We love your words and your humor. We love your honesty and candor. We live brighter through your view of the world. We love that in a world of fake, you are so real with us all. Thank you, thank you and again, we just love you.

  196. I’m sorry about your loss Jenny. And I love you too. Your posts have saved me many a day.

  197. Jenny I’m very sorry that you lost a loved friend. I love you too; many times you have kept me saneish. Well, saner than had I not read your blog or books.

    I deleted 24 pages of this reply bc I was chatting like we actually knew each other and I totally got off topic. Read you next time!

  198. I love you, too, Jenny. Appearing at VOTY with you was a highlight of my life. I still call vodka with chambord “Unicorn Period” though I never drink it. I loved Jenny Grace, too. I prayed more for her than any other person or thing ever. I’m mad at the universe about this. Damn it all.

  199. We know not the hour. And it’s never a bad time to say I love you. I’m sorry for your loss. May your friend’s memory be eternal.

    Love you back, too.

  200. I’m so sorry Jenny. I’m glad you two made such excellent shenanigan memories so you can remember her in all the best ways.

  201. Love you too. We never met but you pulled my daughter and I out of some really bad times. You have helped us understand and embrace the crazy in both of us and made us LAUGH. We love you and anyone who knows you personally has been given a tremendous gift. Like you, I feel like a crappy friend because I only call when my spidey sense tells me too, can’t remember a birthday, etc. But friends like us are like the flotation devices on ships – always there out of sight until you hit an iceberg – then we’ve got your back. Heal well my friend.

  202. I feel this so much. In late 2023 one of my best friends died of a sudden heart attack.
    Two weeks ago another bestie died of brain cancer. I just can’t believe it. My mom said your 50’s suck and now I know why.

  203. Wow, that title says it all. My heart goes out to Jenny’s family. Thanks for sharing this important info on how to support them. It’s so vital to get the right information out there. Sometimes, when you’re managing different updates or lists, it’s super helpful to be able to list compare them quickly.

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