You may not want to read this

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Hi.  It’s me.  You might not want to be here today because this post is about to get really not happy.

Yesterday we had to put Bubba to sleep. 

I know. 

Me too. 

He was doing much better but then all of a sudden he started throwing up so we took him to our vet and they found out he threw another clot that caused a hole in his bladder and was bleeding internally and chances are this would just keep happening until he died.   So we held him and told him that we loved him while the doctor put him to sleep.  It sucked.  I was going to write about it earlier but writing it would make it real and all I could get out was:

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 Pets aren’t supposed to die.  Expecially not ones that have gone through all the crap he went through.  On the way home Victor and I were both crying and he told me we could never get another animal because he just couldn’t deal with the pain of losing them and I told him he’d change his mind but then he said, “No.  No more animals.  And when we get home I’m killing Posey.”  Then I made a mental note to hide all the hammers  and rat poison but also I thanked God that I have a husband who can make me laugh even when I feel like the world is ending.

Anyway, I just want to say thank you to you guys for supporting us through all the Bubba chronicles.  He was a special little person in a furry cat suit and I will never forget him.

We miss you, Captain Snugglepants, and all your little persiany goodness.

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PS.  Posey, we love you too, little man.  If your daddy gives you anything weird to eat just spit it out, okay?

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  1. Oh, Jenny. I’m so bummed for you guys. I’ve been in your shoes and it really sucked. And, I think I would’ve been fine never getting another cat. I still miss my first big, fat kitty who slept on my feet every night and protected me from the raccoon that invaded our house on occassion.

    Of course, my husband couldn’t stand having a house with no cats, so now we’ve got two more. I love them too…but it’s not like you can replace one with another, you know? We have to lock these two in the laundry room at night so they don’t stomp all over us at 2 a.m. Is that cheating?

    Rest in peace, Bubba.

    Stacey’s last blog post..A Letterboxing First

  2. Oh man, that sucks. I’m bawling like a baby. After just going through death in the family I learned that no words ever work or truly comfort, but for what it’s worth I’m so sorry you have to go through this.

  3. OOOOOOH Jenny, I am soooo sorry. I wont say all the typical sentiments. I wont say it gets easier. I am still morning and missing my Alex, but I will say, just feel blessed you had the time you did have….and the great blog fodder. Know i love you and you will ALL be in my thoughts.

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  7. A wise man once said that you should never get attached to anything with a short lifespan. What the fuck did he know!

    You need to get back on the horse, so buy Hailey a pony.

    Willowtree’s last blog post..Hmmm…..

  9. Oh no. I’m so sorry. You are right that I really did not want to read this. In December our family dog unexpectedly had to be put to sleep too. Like one day he was fine and the next day he couldn’t move and within two hours we had had to put him to sleep. It is horrible. I’m glad you have Victor. And Posey.

    Jess’s last blog post..Wedding dress shopping, volume 3

  12. Bubba! BUUUUBBBBBBbbbbbbaaaaaaa!!!!!

    May he rest peacefully in pet afterlife and hopefully no one there got wind of his title “Half-Paralyzed Shaved Tub Cat”. They might make fun of him.

    Don’t let Victor near that sweet last remaining cat. Victor…STEP AWAY FROM THE CAT.

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  18. That sucks!! We had a cat go through liver failure a couple of years ago and it just about killed me. I still miss him. You cat was one of the cutest I have ever seen. I had to laugh at “last cat standing” though. I have a feeling he may get really spoiled. (if he isn’t already!)

    Kelly’s last blog post..Funny Flashback Friday

  21. i’m sooo sooooo sorry for your loss…it’s such a hard decision, and words just don’t make it better or easier…

  24. Oh, Jen. I’m so, so sorry.

    There will never be another Bubba.

    There may be, however, a cat whose paws were made to twine themselves around V’s cold dead heart.

    (joking! I love Victor! You know that!)

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  25. just found your site last week, and i still feel like i’ve lost a little friend as well. my little old senior doggie is at the vet’s this minute with a serious infection. i’m now facing that same horrible question. i feel for you and your family.

  38. What a horrible thing to have to go through. We had to put down our cat, Moggy Mary, when I was about 4, my Mum used to tell me that she was living it up in heaven which was full of catnip and things to chase and play with. I think Bubba is playing with Moggy Mary right now.

    x

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  39. Ahhhhh, man… this does suck. I’ve been trying to convince my vet that yes, there really is something wrong with my 17-year-old incontinent cat despite the bloodwork that says he’s perfectly healthy, but now I’m rethinking it…. damnit Bubba! Why did you and Jenny have to make me cry? I was making headway! RIP, Bubba!

  40. My cat Patches had liver cancer. The vet told us, “You can take her home and wait, or you can help make her an angel today.”

    Which is still the kindest thing anyone has ever said to me.

    May your angel wings be furry, and all the mice be catchable, sweet Bubba.

    Dawn’s last blog post..Haiku Pleading

  43. Having gone through this with several pets over the years, I can truly say I understand (to an extent) how you feel. I’m glad Victor was able to make you laugh (but hide the hammers? and RAT POISON?!? anyway.) Oh, and make a copy of that picture of Hailey and Bubba, and put it on a Gold CD, and make lots of copies of the thing, and put them in separate vaults. I’m *still* kicking myself over the digital photos I have managed to lose over the years.

    ~EdT.

    Ed T.’s last blog post..Greater Houston Hamfest

  45. Oh, god, sweetie! I’m so so sorry.

    And now I’m balling like a baby because I’m thinking of your sweet kitty and my sweet kitty and hoping they really are in kitty heaven playing and having a good time like I told Hollis.

    Thinking of you.

    xoxo

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  46. I am so sorry, Jenny. That just totally, totally, sucks. I sort of agree with your husband. I can’t have any more pets, either, because I absolutely cannot handle anything even remotely bad happening to them.

    Rimarama’s last blog post..Coiff-o-Rama

  47. Jenny, I’m so sorry for your loss. I have a hard time letting go, too. I totally know how you and your husband feel. From now on, it’s fish and annoying birds for us.

    Avery’s last blog post..You Decide!

  51. Aw, Jenny. So sad for you all. Lots of hugs for you and Hailey and Victor – and snuggles for Posey, who will mourn too.

    Has anyone checked on Abe Vigoda today?

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  53. Oh…I am so sorry for you. Losing a dear friend like this is just horrible.

    Though I had to giggle at your “Last Cat Standing.”

    Hang in there…maybe time for a new kitten?

    Tiggerlane’s last blog post..Semi-Moved In

  54. That bites furry ass!

    He’s running, jumping, and hopefully swiping butt sniffs with my Bugger up there in kitty heaven…

    Sorry for your super sucky day Hon.
    Hugs to you all.

    Dianna’s last blog post..A little off….

  56. awww…sorry for your loss…the only good thing is there is no more suffering for your cat.

  59. ok, i really hope this makes you laugh. if it doesn’t, you can totally punch me:

    did you have him sent to your dad, the taxedermist?

    laugh? maybe a little half smile? anything?

    on a more serious note, i am so so so so so sorry. losing a pet totally sucks. it’s like losing a family member and it is just NOT COOL. BIG HUG honey

    Biddy’s last blog post..Friday Fill In

  62. oh, baby. no. just no.

    all i can do is cry with you because i know that we’re sisters in the losing the best redneckly named persian cats on the planet club this month.

    it’s a motherfucking shitty club to be in. i love you, babe. hang in there.

  64. I am SO SO sorry. I know there are no words to make this better, but you are in my thoughts right now. The fact that our pet’s life spans are not the same as our’s is one of the gross inadequacies of the universe.

  68. I’m so sorry. :-(.I was so hoping Bubba would pull through. I feel for you and your family. I’m hoping to have some good years left with my 14yo kitty, but when the time comes somebody’s going to have to sedate me.

    Hairy Weisenheimmer’s last blog post..I See A Rainbow

  70. Thank you all. It makes it easier know that I got to share his fuzzy goodness with the world.

    And no, we didn’t get him stuff (although I considered it) but we are having him cremated so we can add to our tiny urn collection.

  74. So sorry for your loss Jenny, it is so hard because they become part of our family. Big Cyber Hugs to you this weekend. Hang in there 🙂 Pets should live as long as we do !!!

  76. This reminds me of the time I met Ryan Reynolds in the mall. I said, “hey you’re Ryan Reynolds!” and he said “Hey buddy, how are you!” We talked for hours over Orange Juliuses and corn dogs. And he bought all of it! What a guy! Then after we tested out the massage chairs at Sharper Image, he said he was going to a party in 20 minutes and wanted to know if I would go and tell the story about getting busted by the cops for skateboarding at the municipal annex to his friends. He said that story was soooo crazy, none of his actor friends would believe it. So we went to this apartment and there was no one there. And then Ryan Reynolds said he had to go to the bathroom. He came out completely naked with a torque wrench in his hand and a huge erection. Ryan Reynolds raped me.

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  78. Oh Jenny – how sad. I’m so sorry. I hope Hailey copes with the news.

    There is a great book called “Dog Heaven” that you could find at the library. It is aimed at kids to help explain the loss of a pet. A wonderful book.

    Karmyn R’s last blog post..A Four Year Old Wisdom On Babies

  80. I’m sorry, dear Bloggess. They really are part of the family. Just give Posey some extra cuddles, whether he wants them or not.

  81. I’m so sorry 🙁 and here I am wondering how long I’m going to have to live with the dog shedding. I need to be grateful for every day with my dogs.

    Try to smile today 🙂

  86. (Hug).
    I’m so sorry, honey.
    It isn’t fair, and they are supposed to live forever. I hope you can find rest and peace in the fact that you all did everything you could for him. He had a good, long, loving and happy life. You were the best family Bubba could have had, and you know that’s significant. The choice you had to make is never an easy one, and there’s nothing anyone can say to lessen the pain that comes with it, even if it was doing the right, noble and best thing for him.

    Shades’s last blog post..Small Town

  89. Hey Jenny, that really is awful. Kara and I both love cats. We have two official ones and half-a-dozen unofficial ones that mooch off us daily. I’d hate to see anything happen to any of them.

    I’m really sorry about Bubba (which, frankly, is a sentence I thought I’d never have to say again after high school).

    Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to go hug my cat.

  94. Jenny, I am so sorry. My parents had to put our cat to sleep last week. He’d been around since I first started dating my hubby, so it was really sad. At least mom told me ahead of time this time. One time she put my dog to sleep while I was away for the summer in college and forgot to let me know. I’m still bitter.

    I hope Victor will change his mind. The joy pets bring to our lives usually outweighs how much it sucks when they leave us.

    Your fellow cat mourner,
    The Introvert

  95. Someone wise reminded me when I had to make that choice that pets don’t understand death, but they understand pain.

    And thats why some pets get wonderful owners like you — because they get to understand comfort, and hugs, and full tummys, and tickles, and snuggles, and ….more than I can put in this space.

    I’m sorry for your loss. I’m happy that you got to share Bubba!

    Pamela’s last blog post..Spring Teasers

  98. That totally sucks.. when I had to put my pokey to sleep I cried for days. She had owned me for 16 years. I swore I’d never have pets again but now we have three new dogs. I will have to be honest and say I’m not nearly as attached to them as I was pokey.

    wolfbaby’s last blog post..I swear there are birthday pics

  100. I’m so sorry about Bubba – and I know, I KNOW how awful it is for that to happen after you’ve out your heart and soul into caring them back to health again, been there done that with Lucy-rabbit. Hugs to you all. xo

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  105. I just recently turned my sister, in Baltimore, on to your blog because of the Bubba stories, especially the shaved cat photo with the fang!! (my personal favorite)I talked to her today and I told her, “I have bad news for you. Bubba died.” She knew exactly who I was talking about.

    Hugs!!!!

    Shoegirl’s last blog post..Never Enough Time

  107. I’m late to the party… er… wake? but I wanted to tell you I’m sorry too. i didn’t get to the computer all weekend and am ust now getting the news. hugs

    ktjrdn’s last blog post..They’re here!

  112. Oh no, I’m so sorry Jenny. It’s probably small consolation now, but you will be glad when the first feelings of grief have subsided that you all had a chance to tell him you loved him and say goodbye before he went to kitty cat heaven. 🙁

    Miss Yvonne’s last blog post..I Met Barack Obama Today

  117. Poor girl, I feel so bad to hear that this did not end well. You did the right thing to end the suffering. It is never an easy thing for sure.

  118. I just cried. I hate it and can’t imagine how you must feel! I think it’s so strange that I can watch (and often laugh) about people getting injured, but if someone hurts and animal or if one is sick, it’s devastating to me.

    RIP Bubba

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  119. I’m comment 100-something, but if you ever see it, I just want you to know my heart goes out to you. We’re still trying to keep Hazel hanging in there. I am so sorry about Bubba.

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  128. Aw, Jeeze…I know it sucks when people leave comments on posts that are a whole freaking year old but I felt compelled because last week, I had to put my persian to sleep and it was horrible and I love the conversation you and your husband had about it because I had a similar one with my boyfriend who was all like, “Great, now it’s just us and Emily…”

    And besides…it’s the internet…and time doesn’t follow the ordinary rules here, right?

    A.C.’s last blog post..“Come here baby.”

  129. Captain Snugglepants is just about the cutest name I’ve heard in a long time. And I hear a lot of pet names.

    Ironically I’m great with the empathy in person but not so much over the internet. So I will keep it short with: I’m so very sorry. I will be a nutcase when I put my kids down, so feel free to be a nutcase all you need. More so than usual, I suppose.

    *I hate that I feel the need to clarify this, but by kids I was refering to the 4 legged variety. With fur. And no, they aren’t just severly retarded children.

    Saskia’s last blog post..People and Trauma and all of the Beauty in between.

  130. Oh that’s so sad.
    I am reading all the old posts and got quite attached to the little old fuzzy pants pictures.
    I had my dog cremated after she died and when she was delivered in a little wooden box a few weeks later it made me all sad again…

    Is it weird I now keep her in a fire proof box with my passport and ‘essential’ papers in case there is a fire?

  131. I’ve been reading from the beginning, I know this is old now but I can relate to the pain of losing your fur babies. I hope all of your family have long, happy, healthy lives together. I lost my fur baby a year ago Feb 28th and it’s an anniversary I’m not looking forward too. He was the only one who stayed by my side when our life turned upside down. I loved Roscoe the Monster Dog too much for my own good and I doubt I’ll ever have another pet. None could live up to him, and I couldn’t survive losing another.

    The hardest thing I’ve ever done was to put my mom’s cat down. The most painful thing I’ve ever done was to put my Roscoe Bear down.

    There are two kinds of unconditional love – the love of a parent for a child, and the love of a pet for their owner.

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