Today was my 30th TMS treatment and it’s been hard. We tried some new spots on my brain for treatment and it didn’t work. So last week we went back to what helped last year. And today? I feel good. Even though the weather is nasty and I’m tired and overwhelmed and scared. I feel the normal sorts of emotions a normal sort of person would feel after coming out of a depressive period. And it’s amazing.
I’ve felt good for almost a week now. Today I have energy. Instead of staring at my blog and thinking that nothing I write is important enough to share I find myself wanting to talk to you. I’m responding to texts and emails. I’m leaving the house.
I hope this time I can go into full remission, but if I don’t I will remind myself of these good days…and that life is so worthwhile, even when you have to wade through the terrible moments your brain throws at you. And that’s a very good thing.
So here is what’s happening with me:
Ten years ago today I quit my job in HR to give myself a year to try to finish my first book. It feels like yesterday. It feels like a million years ago. Both of these are true. I still feel like the weird girl from HR pretending to be an author. I still look at other writers who have accomplished so much more in the last decade. But I’m proud of the three books I finished, and the two more I’m writing now. I am slow, but that’s okay. Thank you for making that okay, and for not giving up on me even when I’m not in the spotlight.
In other news, Nowhere Bookshop has a logo!
The one that you guys picked had some issues but it worked out because we ended up with something similar but even better…
And if you liked the other logo design options you’re in luck because I bought a bunch of them so you’ll probably see your favorite on t-shirt and bag designs in the future.
More to come soon…
PS. Can’t wait for a t-shirt? Click here.