Hey. I was going to write this all yesterday but then I didn’t because yesterday was very not good. Nothing really bad happened but I fell into a full meltdown of depression and I basically just cried and curled up into a ball and waited for it to pass.
And it did. A little.
All day yesterday I felt so bad for not finishing this post, because how fucked up do you have to be to not be able to blog? And then today I woke up and my heavy meltdown turned to mild depression with spots of okayness and I realized that it literally makes no real difference that I’m posting a day later than I planned and that I’m behind on emails and deadlines and other bullshit because first of all, we’re all behind and probably the people waiting to hear from me are just as relieved to have an extra day, and also my depression was making everything seem much more horrible and bleak in the same way that it always does because it lies so impossibly well.
This intro has nothing to do with what I’m writing about, but maybe you are having a no-good, very-bad day right now and need to hear this: it’s okay. Everyone is struggling. You will get through this. Don’t let your worst days tell you lies about who you really are.
Okay, so…time for the Fantastic Strangeling Book Club! As always, keep in mind that there are no rules to book club and so it’s totally okay if you haven’t read this month’s book yet. Lots of people read it immediately. Lots of people save it for when they have time and come to the discussion later. Lots of people save up all the books for a summer of reading or lend the books to other people and forget to get them back. Most people read the book and lurk in the discussion but never actually talk because most of us are introverts who like to be part of a group that expects nothing from them. The only real guideline to this book club is that you feel special when the book is delivered to your hands because it is a gift to yourself. The end.
So this month’s book is Samantha Irby’s WOW, NO THANK YOU and I really hope you loved it as much as I did. She is magic and writes dark and real stuff that also makes me laugh out loud and that feels so rare sometimes. I’m always so happy when a new book of hers comes out because when I read it I feel like I’m having a conversation with her and when she writes something particularly inappropriate I always say (in my head), “OH MY GOD THAT REMINDS OF THE TIME -” and then suddenly I’m having an actual conversation with an invisible person who is not listening but I often end up writing down those tangents and then sometimes those tangents become chapters in my own books. I wonder if that’s weird or normal? I wonder if there are books that talk to each other and you don’t even know it until the authors point it out? Ignore me…I’m rambling and I’m not sure this is making sense. If we were having a book club irl I’d be like, “Talk amongst yourselves” and you would say smart things about metaphors and authenticity and I would nod and drink too much rum but you aren’t physically here so all I can do is the rum part.
BUT! I’m also announcing this month’s book and I think you’re going to like it because it’s weird as hell:
A taste of the novel, Catherine House:
“A gothic-infused debut of literary suspense, set within a secluded, elite university and following a dangerously curious, rebellious undergraduate who uncovers a shocking secret about an exclusive circle of students . . . and the dark truth beneath her school’s promise of prestige.
Trust us, you belong here.”
And in case you missed it, for those of you who – like me- need constant distractions from your own brains in the form of books I’m doing an optional extra book club read of HORRORSTÖR later this month if you want to pick it up. If you buy it through the Nowhere Bookshop portal we get credit and it super helps us but no worries if you want to support your local indie shop or library or if it’s not for you and you want to just skip it.
Sidenote: Some of you asked how you can help Nowhere Bookshop, and ordering through our bookshop portal makes a giant difference and has been enough to help us buy a sign for the store. WHOOP! (No pictures yet but it’s in the process of being made and I’ll share when it’s up.) Everyone needs a boost right now so no worries if you change our affiliate code to any other participating indie bookstore.
SO…I’m opening up a discussion post on the Fantastic Strangelings Facebook page if you want to discuss Samantha’s book but if you hate Facebook you can always leave your thoughts here.
Remember, I super crazy love you.