I’m sorry. I didn’t plan it this way.

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A few days ago I told you that Hunter S. Thomcat had passed and I said that I would soon write funny happy stuff again but then Ferris Mewler took a very bad turn and the vet said it was time, so today he joined Hunter. Apparently this happens more often than we think…two bonded pets leaving at the same time…and I’m imagining them together and Hunter gleefully showing Ferris around in cat heaven and that’s making it a little easier to deal with.

I know grief is just love that doesn’t have anywhere else to go, but damn…it’s a lot. And now I’m staring at Rolly (last cat standing) and telling her she has to live forever, which she seems set on anyway because she is literally older than this blog and just keeps trucking. I suppose it’s possible that she’s some sort of cat highlander who becomes more immortal every time she outlives another cat but I’m not planning on getting another cat this year (to give us a little time to heal) so instead she’ll have to vampire off the houseplants that I continue to accidentally kill.

Anyway, I’m sorry for two very sad posts in a row. Today I’m going to cry a bit and then tomorrow I”ll’m going to try to be at Nowhere Bookshop for Indie Bookshop Day because being around people is probably a good idea and also because Indie Bookshop Day is our most fun day of the year, so if you see me, feel free to say hi. And Monday I’ll be speaking and signing at Book People in Austin (there are a few more tickets left) and they were going to have it at a church but they changed it to taking place at the bookstore probably because they know I have some sort of dark-aura vampire cat. Does any of this make sense? Sorry. It’s been a rough week. I’ll be better tomorrow.

goodnight, sweet princes

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  2. Oh, Jenny. I am so sorry. We also had to let go of our highlander, Sheeba, yesterday, at the ripe old age of 22. It nevers gets easier. Hugs.

  3. Oh, I am so, SO sorry for your losses. You gave the boys such a wonderful, beautiful life, and the love you all shared was so very clear. Sending you all the love and light. ❤️‍🩹

  6. I’m so very sorry, again. Be kind to yourself as you grieve (and always, but especially now).

  7. It’s so hard to lose our companions, even when it’s the right time and the kindest thing to do. I’m so sorry.

  8. I am not ok with this news so I can not even begin to understand your grief. HUGS

  9. Holy moly that’s too much for one day. But take heart that they’re up to all the frolicking in meadows and chasing butterflies, or silently judging others, whatever makes you feel better. I’m so sorry, Jenny. 🌺

  12. Oh no! I’m so sorry to hear about both of your kitties. I’m thinking about you during this difficult time. 💔😪

  14. Such a heartbreak, Jenny. We lost our yorkie poo March 18th and our Maltese April 14th. 17 1/2 and 15 1/2 years old. Heartbreaking. 💜💜

  16. Love to you, and your cherished kitties. This is definitely a HARD THING, and my heart goes out to you. I had beloved doggies that died 33 days apart, and it took a while to feel like anything other than blubberage. Grief is best shared, so thank you for sharing your beloved pets with us.

  17. Sometimes life is very unfair, so sorry you had to say goodbye to your other sweet cat. Big hugs to you.

  18. That’s a hard burden to bear. You love the furry little bastards and then they leave you and your heart just feels heavy and empty and wounded. My condolences.

  20. So sorry to read this. That’s a really great photo of Hunter and Ferris, and a great way to remember them. Brothers going out together, “holding tails” in this life and beyond.

  21. My heart hurts for you. I am so sorry. They were both given such delightful lives and i hope that comforts you to know how you enjoyed them and they enjoyed you. I know you will miss them. I can see them together even now with twined tails.

  23. Dang, I’m so sorry. Two cats passing away in just a few days sounds so hard. Sending hugs. Hope those cats have fun in cat heaven ❤️

  24. Oh, Jenny. I’m so sorry. What wonderful kitties they were and so fortunate to have someone who loved them so very much.

  25. I am so, so sorry. I am like a human hedgehog when it comes to hugs, but I am sending you hugs from New Hamspshire and I apologize for how awkward they are. Just know that you’re not alone.

  26. I’m so very sorry. I lost two of my boys last year. June 13 and July 3. I still miss them so much

  27. My heart is breaking for you. Rolly will have to step up her lap sitting to be therapy the cat now. I don’t remember seeing many photos of her, maybe it’s the vampirism? Is that a word??

  28. Aw, Ferris. I was hoping he’d hang on. Jenny, you’ve got ninja hugs coming from here. Thanks for posting that picture of them with their tails entwined. I remember the first time you posted it and it really is the best way to remember your special boys.
    Take care of yourself, Jenny.

  31. Ugh. I’m so sorry. I have decided never to get 2 bonded pets again (I have dogs) because they are just as bereft as we when their sibling goes. There is nothing sadder than a grieving pet who can’t find their buddy 😢We all feel for you 😘

  34. So very sorry, Jenny. We have a black cat who’s been over the rainbow bridge for nearly ten years and a red tabby who joined her three years later. I hope Gracie and Oliver gave your boys a good welcome. It hurts but loving them for all the years we can is worth it.

  35. Our hearts go out to you and your family. Please don’t squeeze Ms.Dorothy Barker too
    tightly. Heal as you need.❤️🐕

  37. “Many people see grief as pain. They avoid it, suppress it, or race to process it so they can expel it from their lives.
    Here’s a beautiful alternative: grief is unexpressed love. Holding onto it is a way of staying close to the people (**cats**) we’ve lost.”
    I found this quote when I really needed it. I hope it brings you some comfort.

  39. Oh no. I’m so very sorry Jenny. That is one very unfair double whammy of pain. From the pic, they were (and still are) best buds. Sending love and comfort, and virtual hugs.

  40. I am so sorry. We lost two this year as well both 15 and it was their time, but it’s never easy.

  42. We had this happen with one of our brother and sister pairs some years ago. As hard as it was I had to believe they needed to stay together. My heart hurts for you.

  43. Oh I am so sorry Jenny. 😥 This happened with my older sons a few years ago. So much love to you. ❤️🫂

  44. I’m so sorry. Our lives are mirroring each other in not a good way. Lost my two ( brother/sister) orange babies within 3 weeks of each other in February. One very lonely tabby left standing.

  45. I’m so sorry, Jenny. This has definitely been a rough week at your home. Thinking of you and sending vibes for strength, comfort, and happy memories of your lovely kitty babies. ♥️ Hugs…

  46. I lost my cat of 18 years last year. We got her when we moved into our new home, so it’s like she was always here. I don’t want a new one because if it lives as long as Noodle did, I will probably die first, but I miss the company of a cat.

  48. You made their lives beautiful and that’s all that matters. You exchanged so much love, eventually they had to go but the time you spent together will not.

  49. So sorry for you 😔 I can’t imagine how hard it must be. Sending hugs from Houston.

  50. I remember when you first got those kitties! I know it’s hard to let them go. I’m so sorry.

  51. Oh Jenny. Ferris and Hunter were the old married couple holding hands (tails?) and couldn’t live without each other. I love that for them and hate it for you. I hope they give you a sign or two to let you know they’re happy while they wait for the rest of the fam someday VERY far from now to snuggle them again.

  53. Oh!! I am so, so sorry! We just had to let our very old dog go three weeks ago. We’ve never lived in this house without her… I’ve never missed an animal like this before… your explanation about grief was so helpful today. Thank you❤️

  54. dear God, you poor woman. We just lost our big boy kitty, Frodo, two weeks back, and i’m only now rejoining the living. One thing that helped me through was reading the really needed HOW TO BE OKAY WHEN NOTHING IS OKAY. So thanks for helping me, Jenny. I’m beaming healing vibes your way to help you.

  55. Maybe not a vampire, but a human cursed by witches centuries ago. Think Salem and Binx.

  56. I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of these two beauties in so short a time. It’s difficult enough when we lose one. Sending you so much love and I just know they’re both cuddling together over the rainbow bridge.

  57. You’ve had Hunter and Ferris as long as I’ve known you. They’ve been foundational to my picture of you, of your Bloggess-ness, of what your days look like. I’m so sorry you had two pillars of your day to day life pulled out so suddenly. I’m sending my love and sympathy to remind you that your parasocial friends here all hope we serve as another pillar for you, and though your foundation might feel (be?) wobbly for a while, we are willing to help shore it up, along with your other solid supports like Victor. Big hugs. -Della D.

  58. I’m so so sorry this has happened. Good for the two of them romping across the rainbow bridge together, but for crying OUT LOUD, can a person not get a break from grief? This has been a year of many losses for me too, and I’m sending you all the compassion I have, swirled up like a big fat pink peony. May it be a cushion for your heart.

  59. You have had a terrible week my friend. Two family members lost to you-but always remembered and loved. I am happy that you have other family to rely on and give support. And they also need love and support. I need a cocktail now. Make that a double.

    We are all thinking of you and know your grief. XO.

  60. I’m so sorry. Losing one kitty is devastating enough but both your sweet babies is unimaginable. Big hugs to yoi

  61. I am so sorry for the loss of your kitties. Their time with us is never long enough. I lost my oldest girl (20)last Saturday and am barely functioning. Sending you all love and healing energy. Debbie S.

  62. Jenny, I am so sorry for your loss (again?)

    I have tears in my eyes even thinking about something happening to my 2 cats, and have decided that I will figure out how to make them vampire cats without one having to feed on the other as we waited over 2 years to replace the previous kitty due to grief. Perhaps if I gave them dead plants to nom on?

  64. We lost 4 pets in the span of 3 months a couple years ago .. it was spirit shattering to say the least. So sorry for your losses 😥

  65. We lost our cat 4 years ago. I still miss him so much. I swear I see him out of the corner of my eye occasionally. That used to spook me, but now its a comfort. I hope you get comforted, too

  69. I’m so sorry, Jenny. Our two bonded boys Lionel and Frankie passed within 2 weeks of each other so, yes, it happens. And, yes, it’s hard. Sending lots of love your way.

  71. I’m so sorry, Jenny. I know Hunter is up there welcoming Ferris and showing him where all the good snacks are. I hope that makes it just a little easier for you but damn. This sucks. I’m so, so sorry. Love you tons. ❤️

  72. So, so sorry. Two of mine died within two weeks a few years ago, and it was so hard. Anyone who’s loved a pet (or two, or three) knows your pain. Certainly no apologies needed.

  73. I am so sorry Jenny. Speaking from experience, you do not have to tell anyone, especially us, that you’ll be better tomorrow. Grief as you know is a process, so let yourself feel all the feels. You will feel better when you feel better. Thinking of you, your family and your pets during this time.

  74. Oh my goodness, Jenny. This is so much. Sending love and light because I don’t know what else I to do or say

  75. Finding it difficult to type through the tears.
    I am gut punched, for you.
    Sending all the gentle random internet person hugs.

  76. So very sorry to hear this, I hope it’s peaceful knowing that Ferris didn’t suffer long without his brother.

  77. I am so sorry for both your sweet babies. Sending you the biggest hugs and strength and love.

  78. I’m so very sorry for your losses. All of us cat moms understand the heart pain when one of our pets go away; two at one time is just so very horrible for you. I’m thinking of you, and all of us here are keeping you in our hearts today. Love and hugs sent.

  79. Our dear sweet Jenny, please know that all of us are sending all the light and love that you have shown to us over the years. I wish I could hug you, but the best I can do is send all the good Juju your way and lift you up. Thank you so much for sharing your pets with us and snuggle Rolly and Miss Dorothy Barker for us too :*(

  80. I am so so sorry! To lose one pet is heartbreaking but to lose two so close together is so much worse! My heart goes out to you!

  82. I’m so sorry, that’s a rough one. Maybe Rolly will be like our Puff, who somehow achieved 24? Even with diabetes at the end. I had forgotten how long my parents had her before me, until I looked through her early vet records that last year.

  83. Oh I’m so sorry. What a beautiful picture of the two kitties holding hands, so to speak, with their tails entwined. We never forget our fur babies.

  84. I’ll never forget when I came to do the concert and we were in your house and I heard loud cat meows coming from behind a closed door somewhere. I said, “Is that-“ and you responded quickly and said, “Yep, that’s Ferris.” Rest in peace, sweet Ferris.

  85. Aw Jenny, you gave those two kitties the best lives they could ever want. Remember in your pain that not only did they bring you joy, but that you brought them joy.

  86. The price we pay for their unconditional love is grief. So sorry for both losses. So unfair.

  87. What the actual fuck?! Sometimes the universe is just beastly. I couldn’t believe it when I saw your post….. I am so so sorry for your loss of your two good, sweet boys. really sucks. Grief & loss really suck. We had a cat who loved our dog (she, the dog, tolerated but was annoyed with him like “why is he touching me? Why is he sleeping in my bed? Why?” He would cry & yowl mournfully if she was still at daycare or overnighted ie not home… her last year I worried what would Dexter do when she left us…. & he very suddenly died on Halloween three months before Lucy …..
    I wish you peace and so very glad you still have an eternal cat with you & Dorothy…. I sent this quote as a comment to Hunter S., I found it when my jane cat had to go…. “If love could have saved you, you would have lived forever.” hugs

  88. What a suckey thing to have happen. Sending much love and condolences.

  89. I’m so sorry for your loss. I cannot imagine losing two so close together. Sending you all the light, love and hugs you can stand in this moment.

  91. So hard to lose one of the babies and I’m sure two is even harder. I can tell they both had great lives at your house.

  92. Dear heavens, that’s a lot all too quickly. Is it any better to have everything going at the same time, or harder because of it? Big hugs & many tears to you, dear Jenny. And to Victoria & Hailey too. All in a single week – heart wrenching.

  93. I’m so sorry about your two fine feline gentlemen. Thank you for sharing them with all of us over the years.

  94. I believe that when we dream about our pets, that it’s them visiting us.

    May you have many dreams of Hunter and Ferris

  95. Ohhhhhhhh Jennnnnneeeyyy ……..
    *offers hugshugshugshugshugshugshugshugshugshugshugshugs …….*

  98. I am so sorry for your losses. After my husband passed away one of my cats (Gadzooks) stopped taking care of himself and then stopped eating and drinking. He did end up passing from what vet says happens sometimes. Now it’s just me and his sister Zanna.

  99. It’s hard when our fur people leave us. I love the picture and how they are holding tails. That picture says so much.

  100. I’ve been following you, Hunter, and Ferris for years and feel like we’re old friends that don’t get to see each other often. I can’t even imagine how difficult this must be for you, Victor, and Halley. Y’all gave those boys wonderful lives and I know you have so many great memories to hold in your heart. My heart is there with you.

  102. I’m so sorry. The one thing I really hate is that our animal family do not live as long as we do.

  104. I’m so sorry Jenny. You’ve shared your family with us so much over the years that I feel like we’ve all suffered this loss.

  105. I’m so sorry for your loss. It’s really hard when bad things happen together. But it’s nice that they’ll have each other to navigate cat heaven. Bonded animals like bonded human spouses who are lucky enough to pass together in short order in old age, often are linked together with so much love, it’s hard for them to be left behind when at the end of their lives.
    Hugs and hopes that your other animals get lots of love from you and your family. Animals grieve too, and if they seem extra tired or cranky, or not very hungry, it’s probably their grief. At some point you’ll feel ready to add a new furry family member to your little household, and it may perk up your current pets and give them a new lease on life, once they get past the indignation over a stranger being added to the household.

  106. I’m so sorry. It’s hard. I lost my 17 and 18yo bonded kitties within a few weeks of each other. Hugs.

  107. I’m so sorry for the loss of your beautiful kitties. We understand. Please care of yourself and anything we can do to help -we’re here 💔💔💔

  111. Oh man, Jenny I am so so sad to hear this. Double whammy loss. Take care of you and thanks for all you do to support your community. Holding you up! ❤️🙏 🐈

  112. Jenny, that is gut wrenching and heinous! Sorry you lost both furbabies at almost the same time!

  114. Wait, didn’t they both still have 3-6 lives collectively left? 😭Why are they lining up on the rainbow bridge? What don’t were know?😉 In my healing therapy today the sudden thought “get Jenny’s new book!” popped in. The closest book store was hpb, and adjacent to your book was “writings by Dorothy PARKER!” 😉🤩 LOL. LITERALLY.. So make sure Dorothy BARKER KNOWS she better stick around or we will all descend on Nowhere Books and collectively hug/sob till we’re okay again! Sending so much pet love💖

  115. Losing a loved animal is a bitch. I’m sending you white light and hugs

  116. Sending you lots of hugs Jenny! I’m so sorry for your loss. We lost our 2 girls very close together 2 years ago. They were from the same litter and had been with us since they were kittens, so I get what you’re going through.

  118. Jenny I know it won’t help with your grief but please know from the moment they met you until their last moments on this plane, they knew they were loved. That’s more than some animals get so take comfort in that

  119. I’m so sorry, did that last year with two doggos of ours. It’s the hardest part of loving them.

  120. I’m so sorry. It’s so hard to lose them. Sending hugs. 💔🌈❤️‍🩹 💔🌈❤️‍🩹

  122. My heart just breaks for you. Sending you so much love and an uncomfortably long hug and letting you know that you are not alone. Bless sweet Ferris Mewler and Hunter S. Thomcat. May their romps in heaven be epic. ♥️🙏

  126. Oh my heart again goes out to you and your family on losing 2 dear sweet cats. Long live Ferris and Hunter! Always liked their name origins and thank you for sharing their many years with us. And hurrah on Independent Bookstore Day!

  127. I’m so sorry, Jenny. ♥️

    I lost my sweet girl in January and I miss her every day.

    Rest easy, sweet Hunter & Ferris. ♥️

  128. I’m so very, very sorry. Hunter was why I adopted a ginger cat. She passed last year at 14. They know how much we love them. I wish you and your family comfort and peace.

  130. Oh, the joys and sorrows of having The Perfect Animal. Mine passed away at 1:30 am Christmas morning. I feel
    ?proud? That he chose me as his companion in leaving this plane. We know we need to rescue a dog – we’re not quite ourselves without one) but it seems unfair to the ‘new’ animal. No one could measure up.

    And yet, that’s exactly what has happened the last 4 times. …

  132. I’m glad you were able to share your journey and love with two wonderful companions. I’m positive they lived their best life with you.

  139. Oh no so sorry for your loss. It’s so heartbreaking when you lose one but it’s so much harder when they go so close together. Sending hugs. At least they’re together.

  141. With all the kindness and good you put in the world I know if there is such a thing as karma your two kitties are getting one hell of a welcome to cat heaven.

  142. I have more of a kinship with my beasties than I do with most people, so to lose one of them will devastate me completely and to a degree very few can understand. My furry friends are my chosen family, so my grief will consume me to the point of me being incapable of any other function.. Good on you for giving your heart so completely to them. It’s a testament to how much they love you as well as how they are loved. Thank you for helping me feel real.

  143. I’m so sorry. All my love to you and the family. Be strong Rolly! 🌈🌉❤️

  144. I’m so sorry, Jenny. What a terrible week. I too love the idea of them exploring a new world together. 💙💙💙

  145. OMG, I am so sorry to hear about Ferris…he must have really missed Hunter. During the COVID lockdown, I lost 3 of my kitties over the span of 4 weeks (1 expected, the other 2 totally out of left field)…so I think I can understand some of what you’re feeling…I’ve always believed that whatever unused kitty lives they had left would be passed on to the remaining cats, so hopefully Rolly is set for awhile. And I have an ABSOLUTE belief that the Cat Distribution System has noted this, so…well, don’t be surprised. You gave them both wonderful, hilarious, well-loved lives.
    -Bridgett E. (still haven’t figured out how to sign in…)

  147. So very sorry for your whole family. Thank you for sharing your sweet kitty princes’ lives with us. I feel like I knew them. They are definitely having a great time in heaven together.

  148. Jenny, my heart breaks for you. This is the absolute worst part of having our fur babies. They are supposed to be with us furever. 🐈🐈‍⬛

  153. So sorry to hear it Jenny. They are eating kibble together or chasing mice, or sleeping in a ray of sunshine. At least they are together, probably figuring out a way to come back to you reincarnated as new kittens because you gave them the best life ever.

  154. Omg, I am so sorry!! I have had this happen in my cat household too. It’s devastating. They were so lucky to have had you as their companion, amd they clearly knew it. Rolly-don’t you be getting any ideas now!

    Love and hugs,
    Jenn

  155. Well I am totally NOT ok, with you. We lost three in a very short time span a couple of years ago and we had one this summer. It never gets easier. My heart hurts and yes, the remaining FURR babies are all on immortal watch.

  156. That’s devastating, I am so sorry Jenny. They were so very loved! Is there a local humane society we could donate to in their memory? I did this when my friend’s bonded pair passed within months of each other.

  157. Just a few days ago I observed (certainly did not celebrate) the third anniversary of the death of my last baby girl, The Munchkin. Her quiet companion, Impish, had died 10 months previously. At least once every day I quietly murmur “I miss my babies.”

    Because of my age and generally-devastating health issues, I have made the deliberate decision not to have even one more cat because it’s entirely too likely that I could die and leave behind an orphan to grieve for me, and I find that thought excruciating.

    I am so very sorry that you lost two in such quick succession.

  159. My heart hurts for you and your family. Rest easy, Hunter and Ferris. 🐾💙

  164. I’m so sorry, Jenny. My heart hurts for you and your family. Rest easy, Hunter and Ferris. 💙🐾

  165. God approaches the mice in heaven and asks them what they want.
    We’ve been running our whole lives, we’d like some Rollerblades, the mice respond.
    God grants their wish.
    Then he approaches the cats in heaven. The cats respond, we’re happy here, we don’t want anything, but the meals on wheels were a fantastic idea.

    Happy hunting Hunter and Ferris.

  168. I’m truly sorry about your loses. It’s like a part of you is missing.
    If you ever consider adding to your feline family perhaps it’s time for the president. (Sorry I handle stress with humor) 🤗 hugs

  174. I’m heartbroken with you. I fell in love with those handsome boys in your books. You gave them a life no other cat gets, though. Raccoon rodeo? All my cats are jealous of that life. A million hugs.

  175. Oh Jenny! My heart breaks for you…. Two years ago, we lost two out of three of our cats within a month of each other, and it was gut wrenching. One of them was 14 and had cancer, and we knew she was on her way out, but the other one was sudden and he was just shy of 12. They were totally a bonded pair and I too take comfort in believing that they are still together, frolicking around and causing a lot of mischief in kitty heaven…
    With abundant love,
    Laura 💜

  176. Sorry to.hear about your cats Jenny! I dont have a clever reply but know that your readers feel for you

  177. Oh, I am so very sorry. But…most people would be knocked down by what’s happened, so don’t feel like you have to try and be better tomorrow. Just be you. That’s worked out (mostly OK) so far.

  178. I can’t tell you how sorry I am that you are going through this. Sending you hugs . . .

  181. I have no words for the pain you are feeling. But we are here, and we love you, and we thank you for the memories we now share together with you to keep them both close at heart and in mind. 🌈🌈🌈
    Grief is such a sucker, man. You do what you need to 🌻💜✨️✨️✨️

  182. Bon voyage across the Rainbow Bridge, sweet princes. (My partner and I have so many animal friends (pets, as well as wild animals rehabbed) who have crossed the Rainbow Bridge over the years, we’re getting sort of eager to join them there. We’re 81…..so it shouldn’t be much longer now.)

  183. Oh sweet Jenny… Im so sorry! We lost our dog and two cats within 9 months of each other and it was horrible. But you KNOW Ferris and Hunter are gleefully running around near the Rainbow Bridge talking about their adventures and how much love they had from you, Victor and Hailey. All good thougts and prayers for your soft, sweet, loving heart!

  184. My previous comment was accidentally anonymous, I imagine you’ll probably be getting many more with how many lives you and your fur babies have touched. My heart goes out to you 🌻🌈💜✨️

  185. Oh Jenny, I’m so sorry you’ve gone through this twice in such a short time. Ferris and Hunter were so loved. I’m sure you will miss them; give yourself time to heal. My long haired ginger cat Weasley is sitting next to me, enjoying the chin skritches he’s getting in remembrance of your kitties.

  186. Oh Jenny. Sending hugs. I had a similar bonded pair that passed within a few months of each other a few cats ago. The double blow is hard. To cheer you up a little, today I was on a call with one of our consultant teams for work, and I kept hearing a funny sound and made a comment figuring it was our old dog. I got off the call and was my chonky grey tabby curled up on the couch behind me under a pillow snoring away. Too cute and had to giggle at her.

  187. My two babies went within a week of each other. Bonnie died first, even though she seemed healthier than her brother. A week later, Clyde took a bad turn and I found him laying in the same spot I found his sister, waiting to die. I managed to call the traveling vet and he died in my arms that night.
    It took me over a year before I was able to even think about getting new cats. And I made damn sure to get a completely different type of cat this time so I wouldn’t compare. Three years after my first babies died, I can finally think of them with just happiness in my heart.
    I buried them in a fleece blanket in the backyard and dug up their perfectly clear skeletons two years later.
    I will create something beautiful with their bones as a memorial 🙂

  188. Gentle hugs to you Jenny. Having to make the decision to let our furkids go peacefully is the hardest thing to do. And two so close together. My heart goes out to you. But in making that decision, shows how exactly how much you really did love them. Putting their comfort before your heartbreak.
    I’m sitting here thinking of their reunion up there just over that bridge…Hunter running up to Ferris and saying..”Ferris ! Come tell everyone who Our Human is ! They don’t believe everything I’ve been telling them about Momma and our house !
    Take care of you Jenny. We all care about you ❤

  189. You don’t have to be better tomorrow or the next day. Having been through this exact scenario with cats, grief is a sneaky bitch and is going to hit at weirdest, random and sometimes inconvenient times. Please don’t feel bad when grief gut punches you over a commercial or the cover of some picture book.

  190. Unfortunately I understand this pain. We lost 2 of our 3 cats within 5 days, September of 2020. Sending you love & light. 💜✨ Watch for signs from Ferris & Hunter.

  191. Sending you much love and hugs. That is a lot to bear in a short space of time.

  192. Too much, too soon. I’m so sorry. I hope my Dax was there to greet them both and give them the grand tour.

  193. My 3-legged rescue Cruiser will be put to sleep next week. I love that cat. I hope Dusty & Penny don’t follow. I live alone & they’re all I have.

  194. I am so very sorry for your double loss of Hunter and Ferris, Jenny. And to have it happen while you’re trying to be “on” to promote your new book is extra hard.

    No matter how long we get with these special creatures, it’s never long enough. May you find peace and comfort in your memories of them.

  196. You are teaching me, dear Jenny – that your bonded pair, I’m so awfully awfully sad . . . Could just not “be” without each other . . . Helps So much, for me to understand better, why my 16 1/2 yo brothers passed, just 4 weeks apart – –

    So, yes, dear Jenny – I give you my heart in understanding. And sorrow, for you having Loved so very much – and the wonderful love-filled life Ferris and Hunter had, because of you.

    Your heartstrings will draw you all together again.

  198. I’m so so sorry 💔Warm long hug to you and your family, again ❤️❤️🫂

  201. I’m so very sorry for your now double loss. This pretty much happened to us with our first two cats, who were brother and sister. One of them got kidney failure, and the other had got sick and wasted away two months later. The grief I felt when returning from the vet with Hobbes, our second cat, is genuinely one of the deepest and most harrowing I’ve ever felt. The only loss I have grieved more is my mother. Sending you and yours love and comforting thoughts.

  202. I’m so sorry to hear this, Jenny. Bonded pets do that sometimes, just like bonded people. I’ve seen it several times that one person dies and the other follows shortly thereafter. It happened with my parents… Mom went first after a long battle with dementia, and my dad followed a few months later presumably from the flu, but truly it was his heart missing hers. Hunter and Ferris are together again. That’s how I see my parents’ passing as well.

  203. I am so so sorry! I hope you have some time after these events to just stop & grieve. In whatever way you need to. Such tragic news.

  205. My heart. That photo is beautiful. May the memories help you be joyful again.
    MaryHS

  206. So very sorry. I wish I had the capacity (with words) to take away the pain, but gosh I don’t. Please know that we, your friends that you’ve never met, grieve with you.

  207. Sorry for your losses. I hope you can give yourself some time and space to fully grieve, despite your work schedule. Being around people is quite a good break from the sorrow, and I hope you can get some joy out of that too.

  208. I am so sorry for your losses. A terrible hit. Sending love and hugs. <3

  209. I cried randomly for weeks after losing one of my cats last year. It’s hard and it’s sad and it hurts and it’s ok to feel that and show that. All my love and sympathy. The grief and pain are very real, because the love is real.

  210. Oh ! I’m.so so sorry for your loss. How awful. Healing hugs coming your way.

  211. So sad for you– so much at once–❤️‍🩹👯‍♀️stay close to your many friends and family and know we all get it — really love your new book — easy to pick up and hard to put down — ❤️

  212. Nope. Nope nope nope. Don’t like this at all.
    I’M so sorry. When it sucks, it REALLY sucks.

  213. So sorry to hear this sad news. This happened to my daughter just a few months ago with her kitties. Two sweet little brothers went within days of each other. They were older as well. Sending hugs.

  215. Oh my word, their tails twisted around each other! 💗😻🙀😻💗 so much love! It makes sense that they wanted to be with each other, and I pray that they’re both out of pain and full of joy in their new place over the rainbow bridge! But I know that that makes it so hard for you here! I’m so, so sorry! I pray that you find joy in your memories of them, especially when your lap feels extra empty. 💗 I’m sending so much love your way!

  220. The two pals, touching but not touching except for butts and entwined tails, dreaming forever of squirrels and snarky mocking birds, pass their love and being into the universe. Observing from the highest posts, knocking planets and hearts off their shelves and into the void surrounding us. With aching chests we yearn for their farts, hairy clouds of fur and deep vibrating purrs. The years they allowed us to share with them, so precious, so fleeting, deeply engraved on memory’s pages. Treasures forever. Their pitty pat feet haunt the halls chasing jingle balls and floppy fish. We are theirs forever.

  221. Thank you for letting us get to know your beautiful boys over these many years. Sending so much love. 💕

  222. I read this in the grocery store and wept. The grief of losing a beloved pet is like no other grief, and here you are experiencing it twofold. Sending so much love. If there is a place where kitty souls travel, I like to think that our sweet Ginger is showing your boys the ropes out there. xoxo

  224. So sorry, we will all miss them both deeply.

    It is a thing though. About 18 years ago, my 13.5 year-old Dalmatian died of old age in September, my 10-year old orange cat got hit by a car in December, and my 8-year old tuxedo cat was poisoned with antifreeze the following July – I was about 8-months pregnant with my first child, and barely holding it emotionally at that point (having lost my entire long-time crew – they had been with me even before my husband was around – within less than a year). Talk about fear of attachment issues.

    My friend and coworker at the time (who is Chinese) said that it is not an uncommon phenomenon, as the remaining individuals a deeply affected by the loss, and « cannot live » (generalised term) without their companions.

    Had the same thought about my guys being together again, and it did help to try to make some sense of it all st an incredibly sad time

    Never an easy thing – all our thoughts are with you all

  225. Jenny, my heart grieves for you. This is the suckiest of the suck. Mentally, I’m giving you a hug 🫂 and just shutting up because I’d be crying. Damn. Just damn.

  226. Having to Adult after the loss of an animal companion should be against the law. Hang in there. Ferris and Hunter, you were beloved and will be missed.

  227. I’m so very sorry for your loss. But now your baby cats have wings, and they will have a blast chasing each other in cat heaven.

  228. I am so sorry for your loss! That would be so hard! You are right though they are up in heaven having fun checking it out together. Grieve and heal. ❤️

  229. You don’t have to be better tomorrow. Take your time. It’s ok to hurt a bit longer than “comfortable” for people. We love you. We will wait.

  233. I’m so so sorry. When my dad died my mil shared a poem with me that said “grief is just love in a heavy coat.” Heavy, indeed.

  234. I found the grief of losing two dearly loved fur babies to be almost overwhelming. So much so that I said I would not get another cat or dog because I just didn’t want to feel that way again. I’ve been able to move beyond that but the grief is still there – more like a weighted blanket that can be comforting as well. I send you much comfort in your memories, Jenny. Take the greatest care of yourself.

  238. So much love and so many hugs launched in your direction. I’m so sorry for your loss.

  239. I am so sorry for your terrible loss. The hardest thing we can do as pet guardians to give them an easy passing. The kindest the thing we can do is give them an easy passing. My Sassy Sister Cats (The Pirate Queen and Dainty Paws) send purrs.

  240. Oh no. I am so so sorry. I lost my beloved two dogs within months of each other and it truly sucked. But I do like to think of them together even if they aren’t with me. I hope you dream of them both soon. That also provided me some peace. Sending a hug.

  241. Condolences go out to you and your family. May the time and space (to process and feel) be available for you in this time of grief; and may you have many fond memories to lean on over the time to come.

  242. Jenny, I am so sorry that Ferris decided he had to join Hunter in cat heaven. I know the grief of the loss can be overwhelming. I will alert the squirrels to keep an eye you(or be extra annoying and make you laugh).

  243. No need to apologize. I appreciate the honesty and being vulnerable. I’m struggling right now in my own life and I appreciate how you share your struggles and what helps you. It’s refreshing to have someone be so honest. You are amazing.

  244. Two of ours went that way too. So hard.
    Thank you for the lovely photo.

  247. Jenny, I’m SO sorry for your losses. Fur babies make the world a better place. Now two of yours are making kitty heaven a happier place. I hope that makes sense.

  248. I’m so very sorry for your losses. I was so sad for you when I saw the post about Hunter S. Thompson, and now with Ferris Mewler too–that is definitely a lot. But at least like you say, you know they’re the hip, happening cats in heaven.

  249. My heart goes out to you Jenny on the loss of your two fur babies. I had two sisters and when the first of the two passed away, her bonded buddy didn’t make it pay 3 months before crossing the bridge. It’s such a hard loss when you lose to so close together. You are a great kitty mom and they know that and they are now frolicking together while they wait to be reunited with you much much later. Hugs times 1000.

  250. Don’t you dare apologize for 2 sad posts in a row. You don’t owe us anything, and we love you and are on this journey through the good times and the bad. My heart aches for you!!!!

  251. I feel your pain. I lost 3 cats and one parrot in a year. The last to go sent me on a downward spiral like when you lose a family member. I still have difficulty actually saying out loud that she has passed. Never gets any easier to lose one.

  252. Condolences to you and your family. I am unfortunately familiar with your loss and pain. I too like the thought of cat heaven. 😿😇

  254. I cannot imagine the loss of two babies so close together. I lost two dogs in two years, one very young, and I was wrecked. I cried every night for a year.
    I’m so sorry this happened to you, and to them. <3

  255. I cannot imagine the loss of two babies so close together. I lost two dogs in two years, one very young, and I was wrecked. I cried every night for a year.
    I’m so sorry this happened to you, and to them. <3

  257. Deepest and heartfelt empathy. I’ve been there and the universe never says, “You, you’ll be OK with one heartbreaking event.” No, the universe has other plans.
    I’ll share that I truly believe we get reunited with our fur babies. 💖
    There will be one joyful reunion someday.

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